Wednesday, June 15, 2011

A Fresh Start..... The First Day of the Rest of Your Life..... New Beginnings

I don't know how to title this first post, I seems I have a million different topics running through my head.

I joined Weight Watchers today, hence the name of this fresh new blog "Shrinking Carrie With Weight Watchers". I've decided after weeks of reading health and fitness blogs, I finally have the motivation to start anew. A few things that have changed in my life lately:

1. I became a mama to a beautiful little girl that is my Hanna-bear.

2. Not only was I obese before I got pregnant, but because of my inactiveness while pregnant, I am jelly EVERYWHERE.

3. Being a stay-at-home-mama doesn't have very good health benefits, and when you're 100 pounds overweight you get denied Health Insurance coverage.

4. Staying home all day is a breeding ground for snacking and memorizing the afternoon tv schedule on TBS.

So I figure while all the changes are occurring, I could make some changes for the positive. I have "AHA" moments pretty much everyday, but none such as the one I had when my baby was born. I realized that I am the life line for this child. She depends on me for everything and I can't let her down.

One day I was making my own healthy baby food for the Hanster and I got on my high horse and thought about how good of a mom I was for giving my babes fresh fruits and vegetables to eat. I thought about how I was not going to pass on my bad eating habits to my daughter. But then I also thought about how if I don't change my ways she will follow my example no matter how well I feed her. If I choose to pick up a candy bar at the store on my weekly shopping trip she will want to eat a candy bar as well. I've decided that I must lead be example and become a healthier more well rounded person, for myself and for my family.

On my profile it says that I want my outsides to match my insides, let me explain: I am fascinated with the world of health and fitness. I have done so much research I could easily tell you how to lose 120 pounds, but would you actually listen to me? I do not reflect any of the knowledge that is in my head. I want to walk the walk. I want to feel as healthy as I once was.

For those of you who haven't known me for the way back when days, I lost 85 pounds when I was 21. I did the Weight Watchers program on my own with no meetings, along with a 6 day exercise program that I mapped out myself. I lived 10 steps from the gym and I LOVED working out. I was running 5 miles a day and I felt exhilarated on a true runners high. I also LOVED eating well. My decline to gaining my weight back was a treadmill injury. Someone left the treadmill going at a low mph and I stepped straight onto the grid and it flung me off, but first I landed on my kneecap and fell on the floor. My pride was hurt and so was my leg, but I still got on and ran my 5 miles like nothing had happened. Well something did happen, I messed my leg up major.

Next in the slippery slope was actually the best thing that ever happened to me, and that was that I met my amazing husband Dustin. I got in the relationship world where you go out and eat way to late and just didn't care. I still watched what I ate, but without working out my weight started to creep up.

The last thread was emotional when my parents married 30+ years got divorced (sorry any family who is reading this, I love you all so much!). I don't want to blame, I take full responsibility for my own actions, but emotional eating was the way I dealt with this change in my life.

Gaining weight is sneaky. All of a sudden I woke up and realized that I was 100+ pounds over weight. Dustin and I tried for 5 years to get our Hanna, and if I hadn't had a weight problem I know it would have been so much easier to get pregnant.

Pregnancy was hard when I tipped the scale at 296 pounds (yep, you read that right 296!!!). I had gestational diabetes, and I was miserable. Couldn't move, slept horribly and my ankles were the size of my calves.

So that is most of my story, the short version. I hope to find therapy and humor in this blog. It will be more than just weight loss, but daily happenings. Weight is just the beginning. I hope you'll find anything I have to say interesting, and maybe even inspiring!


  1. I love you so much Carrie! What an inspiring post! I look forward to traveling your journey with you and would love to swap WW secrets! I plan on joining today to give myself a boost as well. I'm sure we'll be a much better support system not living close to each other where we can sabotage each other by meeting at Famous Daves!

  2. Ha! I miss you already Leas! I'm so excited that you joined too! I don't know if you have tried the program before, but it seems SO much easier now. Yesterday I was actually 8 points shy of my goal. It felt pretty good! And we could swap Famous Daves for Red Mango! Yum! Thanks for the support, it makes it easier when you know you have people out there that care!