Taking a Step Back/Weigh in

Normally, I post at night after little Hanna-bear has gone to sleep, but I need a distraction from the mini-binge that I felt a brewin'.  I went a little off the path today because its weigh in day, and I have to get it out of my mind that I should get a "free day".  There will be no such day as a "free day" for this lady.

I weigh myself on my own scale on weigh in day (I have a high quality scale that is trust worthy).  I do that because I'm naked, haven't eaten, and get to potty before I get on the scale.  I want to know the "real" number, not the clothed, watered and eating number.  Does that make sense?  When I got on the scale today I felt a little defeated......but its not because I didn't lose weight.

I weighed in today at 271.2.  That is a 1.4 pound loss.  I know I should be happy over a loss of any kind, but the last 3 weeks have been all 1.something pound weight losses.  I would be ecstatic if it was just 6 points higher for a 2 pound loss.  At this rate it will be around 2 years for me to lose all the weight I need to lose.  That just seems discouraging at the moment.  I got started eating for lunch and found myself not stopping.  So I'm taking a step back and re-evaluating my priorities.

I'm pretty sure that I can find the culprit of me not losing as much as I'd hoped.  The Sam's club hot dog, cherry coke, or possibly the free popcorn at Harry Potter.  2 Almond joy minis, mini cheesecake bites, Pork ribs etc.  Now that I'm looking back over some of my eating, its a miracle I lost the 1.4 in the first place.  I am a lot more grateful at this moment.

Moving forward, I know what I did wrong, and I know what I need to do right.  A new weekly post that will be coming to the blog is "What I ate Weigh in Day".  I will keep a post food journal of what I eat on weigh in day so that I am more accountable for the things that I am eating on the day formerly thought of as my "free day".  Let's be honest, on Weight Watchers you get to eat what you want as long as you stay in your points, I'm not deprived anything.  There is no reason for a "free day".

Do you give yourself a "free day" from healthy living?

I love Weight Watchers Grand Junction!

Yes, I am declaring my love for the Weight Watchers center in Grand Junction.  It was so nice to be in the meeting room that I am use to.  There was such a BIG difference between the meeting here and the one in Utah.

When I walk into the WW in GJ there is a feeling of camaraderie.   It is a room full of lifetime members that have made friends and are truly a support group to each other.  I'm not saying that I'm a chatty Cathy or anything.  I come in, do my weigh in, listen to the meeting and go home.  I use it as my reminder of the journey that I'm on.

The WW in UT was kind of sad to me.  It was silent.  No talking.  Nobody sitting next to each other.  The leader was kind of awkward and it felt like I was in a church meeting.

Anyway, I am glad to be back home.  Now lets get down to the nitty gritty.  This week I lost 1.2 pounds.  I am impressed that I lost at all.  Maybe the extra day helped a little.  One thing I can say helped is lemon water.  There is a reason that you put lemon in water and its not for the way it makes it taste.  Lemon is a diuretic.  It is a natural cleansing system that rids your body of salts and toxins.  Its pretty much like my coffee, and has the same effect coffee has on my digestive track without the jittery feeling.  

So vacation will no longer be affecting my weight loss.  Now I can focus.  But isn't it always something?    I'm on vacation, my child is sick, Aunt Flo is visiting.  It seems like there is always a reason to not be working on being healthy.

My husband and I have been trying to adjust to a single income, since we decided that I would stay at home with our daughter.  Unfortunately, we have been spending like we still have two income's.  This week we have forced ourselves to focus on our budget.  My husband has been getting extra hours at his job on his off weeks and that has been helping, but those hours may be going away next month.  I may have to give up my WW monthly pass and do it on my own.  I have all the tools to do this, but it is still scary.

Here is my need from you!  I need some help with accountability (did you think I was going to ask you for money?  We're not THAT destitute!).  I look at my blog stats everyday and there is a lot of people checking out this site.  I need you to follow, leave comments, and anything else that is possible just so that I know you're out there and not just lurking my site (lurkers are still welcome but if you feel comfortable following that would be appreciated).   I would love to know if there is anyone out there with the same struggles who can relate.  Anyway, enough begging.

Moving on.  I'm going to try to salvage some of the goals that I made at the beginning of the week and see if I can't complete some of them.  With Hanna's ear getting better I should at least be able to catch up on all of the housework, blah.

Weigh-in & Single Parenting...

Today's weigh in was 273.8!  That is a 1.6 pound weight loss, which is not too shabby considering it was a holiday and I'm on vacation.

I'm pretty sure that lack of sleep is showing on my weight loss.  Hanna has gotten worse at sleeping day by day since we've been in Utah.  Last night in the middle of the night she decided she didn't want to sleep from 1:30 to 4:30.  I am so thankful for the time that I've been able to spend with family, but I am excited to get home next week so that I can get back on schedule and really focus on my goals.  I AM SO CLOSE TO 10 POUNDS....ARGH!

Now its honesty time.  I totally broke down this morning after my weigh in.  I think the last week and a half of no sleep and not seeing my husband all came crashing around me and I sat in the bathroom and had a pity party for myself.  I hate crying, and it was like the ugly crying where I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror because I probably would have started laughing from the ugliness of it.  How ironic.

Anyway, I had to give myself a little pep talk so that I could make it through the day I talked to my hub's and begged him to come on Thursday so that I could have a break from single parenting.  Shockingly, he told me that he was already planning on coming down and that he was going to surprise me, but of course I am pretty much losing it right now so I wasn't taking "no" for an answer.  He can never surprise me because I pester him so much he finally just tells me to get me off his back.

My mood has instantly changed since I got this bit of information and Thursday night can't come fast enough.  Pray that my Hanna sleeps tonight and I can get a decent nights sleep.  Fingers crossed.

When is the last time you had a good cry?
Today, and before that it was right after I had Hanna......stupid hormones.

What instantly puts you in a good mood?
My Husband & Ice Cream (frozen yogurt these days).

Quit Worrying & Trust the Process.

I'd like to start by saying that I am staying far away from my mother's scale.  Weigh in today was a 2.8 pound weight loss!  Yay!  I am down 7.4 pounds all together, and I am ecstatic!  This may partly be because I think my mom forgets that I can eat 14 more points than she can, but she gives me the same portion sizes that she eats.  I've been feeling satisfied, so I will let it slide.

I also got my first 5 pound star!  I was pretty stoked.

In the near future this thing'll be packed with stars.

Today in the WW meeting it was on how to stay on track while you're on vacation.  Funny thing is that I am on vacation and so I felt it was really geared towards me.  It was just what I needed to hear after stressing out yesterday.

Thanks for all of the helpful comments.  I just need to keep chipping away and those 2 pound losses start to really add up!

Have a fab day!

Accentuate the Positive (and Negative)

Let's get the negative out of the way quick before it lingers.

**DISCLAIMER** there will be a bit of TMI in this post.  If this bothers you skip down to the Positive portion.  

I have a confession to make: I weigh myself every morning, always have.  Normally, it doesn't effect me for more than a moment and then I get on with my day.  This weigh in has stuck with me all day.  It could be that I got hardly any sleep last night because Hanna decided she would rather play than sleep.  It could be the fact that Aunt Flow has come for the second time this month and that she has been frequently wearing out her welcome about twice a month since I had the baby LAST YEAR!  WHEN WILL THE FLOW STOP!?!?!?!?  UGH!

Anyway, I'm worried about my weigh in tomorrow because My weight has not changed since last Wednesday.  This is frustrating because I kid you not, I have tracked every piece of food that has entered my mouth.  I haven't used any of the extra points they give you for activity, or indulgence, and I STILL haven't lost a pound.  

I use to be so in tune with my body before pregnancy, now it's like I don't know it at all.  I'm not asking for another 4 pound loss, I will take 1 or 2, but 0? Come on.  

Alright, enough whining.  Now on to the Positive!

Like I said in the previous post, my mom is also on the Weight Watchers plan.  This has been great because she has been making my meals for me and has made it so easy to eat well on vacation.  I haven't been to the gym yet and I'm pretty sure that is why I haven't lost any weight this last week, but we'll just have to see for sure tomorrow at the official weigh in.

We tried to get a little exercise in yesterday and walked up to Bridal Veil Falls.  It was gorgeous!

The river is dangerously high right now, but it looked so beautiful.

Hanna didn't even make it through the car ride, she was pooped.

Weigh in day is tomorrow! I'm going to a meeting in Utah so it's a little nerve racking being somewhere different. We'll see how it goes.

Q's


What frustrated you today?  How'd you get over it?
It seemed like everything frustrated me.  I went shopping in Park City and found Hanna a cute swimming suit and cover-up.

Drumroll Please..........

And the first weeks weigh in results are............278.2!  That is a 4.6 pound weight loss!  I was really hoping it would be at least 5 since it was my first week and I felt starving for the first part of it, but I am not going to be hard on myself.  I can honestly say I did everything I could and earned every pound of it!

It's a funny thing that happens when you eat things that are good for your body.... you start to get use to it.  For the last couple of days my body seems to finally be regulating and getting use to the food that I am eating.  By no means am I in any sort of habit of healthy eating....yet.  We're not out of the woods and I strongly agree with the phrase "21 days makes a habit".  These next couple weeks are crucial in my weight loss journey and I need to keep my head on straight.

On Sunday I get to venture to Utah to see family for 2 whole weeks.  I am so excited I could do a happy jig.  But this also comes with some hardcore triggers.

1. 4th of July.  Do I really need to say anymore?
2. Seeing friends and family.  Some friends I haven't seen in years and of course you have to go out to eat!
3. Being out of my familiar surroundings. I am annoyingly OCD about my schedule and I hate when there is a stick in my spokes.
4. Going to a different WW meeting and using a different gym.  Way out of my comfort zone.

There will also be some good things that will be proven within the next two weeks:

1. 4th of July.  Parade and lots of walking because the art festival will be going on.
2. Seeing friends and family.  I will focus on spending time with family instead of what crap will I next put in my mouth.  Also, me and my mom have already decided that we are going to be cooking delish meals so that both of us stay on track.
3. Being out of my familiar surroundings.  I won't have the same triggers that I do in Colorado.  I live in a pretty small town where there is not a lot of healthy options.  There will be lots of options in Utah.
4. Going to a different WW Meeting and using a different gym.  It is detrimental in life that you stay out of your comfort zone.

Life is all about perspective.  I choose positivity, it will be the only thing that can get me through the hard times.